Part Purity Seeker

There is a website, pluggedinonline.com . I truly recommend this site to anyone unsure if they want to see a movie. It is a focus on the family movie, tv, video game and music reviewer. They watch any movie you can think of in the theater and then review the language, the violence, sexual content, and even spiritual content. I've always wanted a really strict entertainment lifestyle but never had anyone encourage me into it. Jeff is very strict and wow do I love that about him. We have seen maybe 4 movies in the theater since we started dating; Bella, the Pirates Who Don't Do Anything, Ratatouille, and Fireproof. 2 were Christian made and 2 were aimed for children.

There is a scripture in Duetronomy 21 that is interesting: 6 Then all the elders of the town nearest the body shall wash their hands over the heifer whose neck was broken in the valley, 7 and they shall declare: "Our hands did not shed this blood, nor did our eyes see it done. 8 Accept this atonement for your people Israel, whom you have redeemed, O LORD, and do not hold your people guilty of the blood of an innocent man." And the bloodshed will be atoned for.

They could say they weren't responsible because they hadn't seen anything. What we see we are responsible for. Therefore whatever you are looking at you are responsible to God for. I can't help but be convicted this isn't just seeing someone murdered, or someone else sinning, this is whatever you see. If you watch movies with sex in them you will be responsible to God for what you have seen. It isn't easy to leave these images out of your head. The enemy has with me at least, used these images to trouble, disturb and cause me to struggle. We make excuses about what we watch. We watch violence and call it relevant. We watch sex and call it art. We watch manipulation and greed and say that is just the world around us. While all may be true in some manner, are these true reasons of appreciation for the movie/show or is it our excuse to get by with a small insignificant amount of sin? God is a God of the heart. I'm not pushing my ideals out there saying everyone everywhere should stop seeing movies altogether. I am saying I have cut down my own movie and TV watching because I can see now the terrible things it puts inside of me. I can't watch TV without seeing a commerical with scantilly clad women making me feel fat and ugly. I can't watch movies without knowing that God's name will be taken in vain at least one or twice. I see that I have become so insensitive over the years and so hard to what God wants that it is difficult for me to see what I am pouring into myself through the entertainment industry. The industry is very sly about making things seem okay. When interviewed about their movie, RENT the actors said that people loved the movie because the things so difficult to discuss in life were easy to sing about, music makes talking easy.

I, for a long time, excused Broadway's vulgarity. I called it art, saying who cares what they are singing the music is amazing. I said it was fun, just music and playful talks. I said this until one day I was listening to Avenue Q and there is a song called the Internet is for Porn. I turned it off right away and got on my knees. I was so disgusted by what I had allowed myself to cross lines with that I repented of any and all plays Broadway or not that encouraged this kind of behavior. I realized that I had allowed myself to sing and laugh about a lot of sexual misconduct. I may sound a bit pilgrim-y, but maybe I need to, for my own relationship with Christ. I was in a devastingly horrible relationship for a long time that I endured emotional abuse on a level that I thought was normal or deserved at the least. While part of this relationship I gave in to many sexual ideals by either force or sheer exhaustion. It is taking years to get rid of it. I still feel as if I am dirited and damaged because of what has been seen and done during that time. I am grateful the Lord was not wrathful to me, but slow to anger and loving. He has loved me out of my love of Broadway and into my love of His purity. I so desire a pure life, a life that He smiles at. I am very grateful for the freedom Jesus has given me. I don't need to ever be a slave to sexual immorality ever again.